I want to talk to my sister.

I finished reading this most extraordinary autobiography, "Kali's Odiyya: A Shaman's True Story of Initiation" last night. It was so powerful and I am beyond myself trying to interpret how such events could occur in this universe.

I started the cleanse, excitedly, (remember Prabha encourages Shambu to act out his karmas with zeal, not attachment or indifference, but zealously), I don't know about zealously, and am now still quite hungry after a tasty lunch of summer vegan rolls.

And, remember that all desires are little attempts to be closer to God, the truth within each and every one of us. As I lay on the couch blanketed with my sister's shawl and my feet cozed into white socks, I released myself into Wah!'s chants to the mother. They say god responds to our yearning.

There is so much out there to read and practice and know. In the Art of Dying workshop I took earlier this year the teacher said that all you can take with you to the other side is your knowledge. I have heard this reiterated in other traditions, but I wonder if my initial interpretation was incorrect. For it is not your book knowledge that you take with you, but your spiritual knowledge. It is the state of your mind which you take with you--the knowledge refers to the knowledge you have gained in the purest and truest way, which is through deep meditation and introspection.